January 1st, 2008

Zod

Looking Back, Looking Forward

As I tend to do at this time of year, I'm going back and re-reading LJ posts from the first few months of the previous twelve.  It's always an interesting and occasionally irritating process, when I see missed opportunities or things that had me upset for really no good reason.  Also, I post to LJ a lot, so it's a fair bit of reading.  I'm just up to the end of last February and I've been going for an hour.

Anyway, a couple of things I've gleaned so far:

1.  The weather last January was vile and contributed to a generally shitty mood overall.
2.  Last January/February might have been host to the heaviest concentration of gaming I've done in the past ten years, even if a couple of the games didn't pan out in the long term.  I wish I could have made a go of the C&C game.
3.  Overall, my work stress levels ARE significantly lower than they were this time last year.
4.  I came up with a couple of really good recipes during those two months.  The vegan potato soup, for one.  I need to do that one again.

As a more general recollection of the year, 2007 was very much a year of re-establishing contacts with folks who'd slipped by the wayside for one reason or another.  Renewing my friendship with j_in_question was huge, but discovering that lori_holder had a LJ was one of my best days of the past year.  Having my old friend Charles get in touch this past weekend is just icing on the cake.

We also visited jkubenka and her clan for the first time in years.  Must do so again before too long.

On the church front, 2007 was significantly bumpier.  My primary motivation for attending the UU services has been to find a like-minded community rather than any particular regard for my metaphysical welfare.  For the first half of the year, things were generally OK.  Over the summer, just as I started teaching RE to the middle school kids, we got hit by a series of issues that significantly affected my opinions of a number of people in the organization and led to me pretty much staying away completely after August.  Just before Christmas, we got a letter saying the current ministry team are leaving.  Given that I saw them as a big part of the problem, this is a cautiously hopeful sign.  We'll just have to see.

In the past few weeks, I've realized that I'm still carrying a lot of bitterness over everything that happened back in 2005, which has colored my dealings with people in general for far too long.  I'm also reminded of a certain Buddhist koan I've been known to spring on other people.  I need to follow its advice myself and move on.  On 1.1.2009, I don't want to be affected by it anymore.

I say this every year, but I really want to host a regular game here at our place.  I'll never capture the lightning in a bottle that was "Fair City" in its prime or some of our other great games, but I'll settle for a regular group who are all invested in whatever we decide to play.  Definitely time to start recruiting, but I also need to write up my OwlCon rounds.
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